Acceptance

I'm gaining an appreciation of this word: Acceptance. I've been going through a struggle as of late that really has tested this principle in my life. Finally, I came to the realization that no matter how much I kick and scream like a child, none of that is going to change the outcome.

I came back to a different life not to long ago. And things had drastically changed. I had pushed someone out of my life through my own selfish actions. I wanted to fix this immediately, to say how sorry I was, to ask for forgiveness, but that wasn't what happened. The truth of the matter is my words carry little weight. Only my actions and showing that I'm working hard to change the way I've acted in the past is changing, will prove my words truthful. The harder I fought the idea of acceptance of the situation, the more crazy I made myself.  Once I gave in to the idea that things happen the way they are supposed to, and in the time frame that the universe sees fit, I found some relief.

That doesn't mean I have to like the situation. But if I can accept that things are the way they are right now, this moment in time, I'll be ok. If I concentrate on what needs to be done in front of me, and show gratitude for what I still have, then I'll learn from my mistakes.  I need to grow up. Bottom line! 
I'm making some changes in my current living situation. Removing  myself from an environment that isn't condusive to the changes I need to make. I'm allowing myself the opportunity to let someone help me, so I can help myself. Time to put my pride away, suck it up, and go forward! Thus, acceptance.