Out of the Box!

Apathy and depression are the prices we pay for having settled for and bought into our smallness. It's what we get for having played the victim and allowed ourselves to be programmed. It's the price we pay for having bought into negativity. It's what results from resisting the part of ourselves that is loving, courageous, and great. It results from allowing ourselves to be invalidated by ourselves or other; it is the consequence of holding ourselves in a negative context. In reality, it is only a definition of ourselves that we have unwittingly allowed to happen. The way out is to become more conscious.
David R. Hawkins, M.D., Ph.D.,
Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender


The passage above came from a daily email I get. The timing was perfect! When I think about all the negative thoughts that cross my mind, it's no wonder I've had my share of depression and apathy! How often have I allowed myself to be programmed in a negative light? Whether from things others have said, or from my own negative thinking; I've let myself feel small and insignificant.

In the past three months, I've had my share of both. Mostly due to my own thinking. Lately, I've been paying more attention to how my thinking influences my moods. Invariably my moods have been a result of uninspired thoughts of myself. Especially thoughts of the mistakes I made leading up to my relapse. Truth be told, I've had more than my share of regrets. But the simple truth is that I'm no longer living in the past. It's my choice if I want to continue to revisit the errors of yesterday. Sure, I don't want to forget the things that could lead me astray again, but I can't change the results of the past. Its time to move forward, let go of the past and look to the future by staying present, and remembering that today well lived leads to a brighter future! Time to break out of the box that has held me back!