Tonight was kinda strange. I went to my home group Christmas party. I felt strange there.
A year ago, I was in almost the same position. 60 plus days and announcing it at the meeting after the party. But this year I'm not feeling the holiday spirit. Mostly because this year I'm not spending it with anyone special. A year ago it wasn't that way...
I have a lot to be grateful for. I'm sober and alive. I still have friends and family that care and love me. Yet, I struggle with being without having someone to share intimate thoughts and feelings with.
I'm praying that the feelings will subside. That in the new year things will change for me. So far things are getting better. It just that feelings of sadness for the loss of a loved one can be overwhelming.
I trust that God has a plan for me. But tonight I'm having a hard time...
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