It's been awesome! Because of fellowship, it's made this past Valentine's Day more palatable. Wednesday, I awoke to thoughts of doom and gloom. Then I turned on the news, and they started in on about Valentine's Day this, and Valentine's Day that... It turned my mood from bad to worse!
I wasn't really looking forward to Thursday. Not that I've ever been a big fan of the Hallmark Card holiday in the best of times, but this year it seemed as if I would really dread it. Thankfully, I got out of the foul mood I was in and went to a meeting, which led to eating dinner with a couple of friends afterward. By the end of the night, I was in a great mood. After having some laughs and general guy talk, I felt so much better about my situation. I went to bed with a calm demeanor, and slept well.
Thursday, I expected more of the same feelings and thoughts I had Wednesday morning, but that wasn't the case. Perhaps, it's because I made plans to see a movie with another buddy of mine that day. I think making plans in advance really helped eliminate the pain of not spending V.D. with my her.
The group of guys I've been hanging out with are all in early recovery like myself. It's been really great getting to know them. We share a lot in common. And they all have a wicked sense of humor! When I was in rehab, I was told I would need to "stay with the men" in my first year of recovery. Honestly, I wasn't to keen on that notion. However, I'm beginning to see the value of building strong bonds with other men in recovery. I have a safety net now. I trust these guys to help me when I need it. Besides, I need a woman in my life, like I need a bottle in my hand... My emotions are just to volatile. I need to continue to grow spiritually, emotionally, and finally mentally before I can be in a relationship with the opposite sex.
Here's to fellowship!
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