Self Discovery

"Who in the world am I? Ah, that's the great puzzle!"-Alice in Wonderland

The past three and a half months, this has been a question I've been pondering.
I used to identify myself by the things I owned, the people I held close to me, and the things I did. To some extent, some of this was true. But deep down inside, the question went unanswered.

Truthfully, the question remains. But, I'm becoming more aware that the answer resides in my spiritual connection. Because of this, I've become more comfortable with the parts of myself that I am familar with.

My therapist asked me to give him three examples of things I like about myself. Recently, I noticed that I have the gift to make others feel good. It seems so odd that I only became aware of this, considering I noticed it while working. The thing is, that is what I was hired to do almost 17 years ago...  I also listed that I have a good sense of humor, and that I'm relatively intelligent.

Three months ago I couldn't have come up with one thing. I was so lost in my own misery, that the idea of anything positive was buried. Thankfully, that is changing.  I still struggle with negative thoughts, but I'm getting better at redirecting them. Thoughts that tell me I'm unlovable, that I'm unworthy of good things, that I can't stay sober; are less prevalent. All of which can be paralyzing when I'm not staying connected spiritually.

I'm only making a beginning, but I'm grateful for the progress I've made in this journey of self discovery!