Things are looking up in so many areas of my life. Having been through literal Hell in the recent past, I can now look over all that has transpired and see how all the pieces of the puzzle are coming together. Sometimes I don't like what is going on in the present and I resist the change that is occurring. But once I relinquish the urge to try to hold on and control the situation and accept the reality of it, things tend to always work out for the better. You'd think that when I look over my life and I see that everything always works out in the end, I'd stop trying to control everything. But I'm stubborn and still let fear run my life enough that I usually kick and scream for a little while before surrendering...
If I look over the recent past, I can see how being demoted and losing a relationship put me in the place I am today. The truth is I was stagnating in both areas and I couldn't see it. So I believe that God answered my prayers of help and took those things from me. I was content in the way my life was going, but not as happy as I really wanted to be. If I'm honest with myself, there were plenty of times when I wanted more out of what I had in my relationship. Don't get me wrong, I was happy enough, but I found myself longing for more. It just wasn't something she was capable of giving me.
As far as the job goes, I was frustrated at times and I'm sure that played into my handling myself the way I did which led to my being stripped of my promotion.
Today I have new sense of adventure and dream of the endless possibilities that lay before me. The job that I'm taking will bring far more responsibility, and whole new set of challenges, but the rewards will be well worth it! On a side note, I'll be working with a friend of mine. The thing about this friend is he was a behavioral tech where I went to treatment the last time. Initially I couldn't stand him. But I grew to respect him because I was forced to talk to him about a situation that I didn't care for by my therapist at the time. It was one of those pivotal moments in my early recovery that at the time I didn't see the gravity that the situation held. Once he and I had that conversation, we were able to have a good rapport there after. Today, I'm happy to say that he and I have become good friends and I'm very excited to be working alongside him! It's moments like that one that remind me that when I'm uncomfortable that its ok to embrace it. The growth that has occurred in the past to years in me is astounding! Thus reminding me to make RELENTLESS FORWARD PROGRESS!
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